Friday, February 13, 2026

Doesn’t Have to Be Deep

 

I talk to Allah everyday. I make a habit to. I also remind myself to be grateful to Him, to say thanks to him when things are easy for me, because He made it easy for me. 

Growing up, i always feel like talking to God has to be formal. Formal in a way that i must do daily prayer first and only then i can pray for what i want in life. News flash: i mature and i realize that when He says that He is near, He is indeed near for as long as i believe so. 

So i changed the way i ask Allah. I used to only ask Him on a prayer mat, now i include Him in my everyday routine. Like i’m talking to myself. 

“Ya Allah, harap boleh terus masuk train ni takyah tunggu the next train” me while walking to MRT to commute to office. And if i managed to get on the train like i wish, i’ll say “terima kasih ya Allah, dapat terus naik. Terima kasih dah permudahkan urusan aku”

“Permudahkan lah urusan kerja aku untuk hari ini. Semoga smooth takde masalah, takde orang cari and kacau. Aku nak focus buat …. (Report, pull data, prepare letter etc)” i make sure to be specific.

“Leganya berjaya berak. Alhamdulillah terima kasih!” Happened to me just now, that i decided i wanna write about it. Lol.

Well, to name a few. I have lots! 

I learn that the talk doesn’t have to be deep, big or profound. It just had to be me, including God in my everyday life. When things are easy and convenient, i give my thanks to Him and when it’s the opposite, i ask Him to make it bearable for me or i’ll simply just say “mesti ada hikmah, i trust You” somehow it feels like an instant relief and i love that for me. 



Friday, January 30, 2026

Shortest January

 

For me. Can’t say for everyone obviously, most complained that theirs is painfully long.

This month feels a lot like i’m floating in the air, like it’s a trial month per se? Lol. I’ve been away travelling almost half of the month, then got sick (rare case, i know) and was on medical leave for 3 days straight. Just when i got the hang of it (work, of course), hey January is about to end! 

So here are January things i wanna pen down so i won’t forget in the future (well i most certainly will, my brain doesn’t remember much these days..):

1) My first ever Europe trip was a success, alhamdulillah. Vienna, Hallstat-Obertraun, Salzburg, Cesky Krumlov and last but not least - my ultimate dream city Prague. Hehehe. (Doha, Budapest, Bratislava in Dec..) i loveeee this part of Europe it scares me a little. Y’all know i have a high tendency to repeat places kan but part of me wants to explore other parts of the world too. Yihhh.

2) I am allergic to antibiotic apparently. I forgot the name already (seeeeee, must be the age huahuahuaa). Yep, surprise surprise!

3) Turns out, i didn’t hate my job. Kinda missed it when i was away. Probably like it more than i have the courage to admit. 

4) Finished a book. Yes, uno. Okay lah at least one book a month is good enough for me. The title is Heart The Lover where the MMC & FMC didn’t end up together. Didn’t hate the book but also, didn’t get the hype when booktok said this is a heart wrenching soul crushing kinda book. It was sad, but wasn’t sad enough to make me weep not even one drop of tear eh. But the ending does make me ponder if i will end up like the MMC, dying alone. I mean the bestfriend and family were there but ultimately he’s still considered alone in a sense that he was still very much in love with the FMC decades later but the circumstances have changed since, FMC is now happily married with 2 kids. The regrets, the what ifs - that’s what eats you inside. 

5) Devoured a new netflix series Can This Love Be Translated in 2 days. Y’all, Kim Seonho. Heroine’s cute too! The cinematography is chef’s kiss (not that i know much of it but if it’s cantik, it’s cantik lah k). In the series, they visited Japan, Canada and Italy (kebetulan i’ve always wanted to go to Japan ecewah pastu macam wahhh lawa ek kau Canada). But above all, THE KIM SEONHO. 

6) Bumped into a colleague of mine whom i used to work closely with in my previous role. She said something like “i tetap rasa you still paling best bab handle exit” made my whole day??? A little reminder to myself, if i feel like someone is doing a good job or if i see/think something nice about someone i should really speak up to/share with them. A little kindness goes a long way!

7) I just booked my first flight in 2026! The most impromptu booking thus far. Made the booking on Monday and i guess i’m seeing Seoul (or Jeon Jungkook, my soul) tomorrow? Yes, ESOK. I have been thinking about this for some time dah. What if i kidnap Jungkook and bring him back home for CNY & Raya and force him to love me forever like i do him? Do you think BTS tour will get cancelled if JK is missing? I mean fans won’t notice kot ek kalau sorang member takde?

Okay tu je! Bye!

But hypothetically though - point no. 7??? Y’all watch out k kalau i tak dapat ticket tour BTS this year i might just do that!!! I’m already two steps ahead of you guys, y’all flying to Seoul in April for BTS concert? Lambat. I’m going tomorrow! I might have chance ending up with JK if i keep this momentum jaga-jaga! 

Wednesday, January 21, 2026

January 2026


I bet nobody reads blogs anymore so i can write openly now, more than ever? 

How long has it been since i first started writing? 15 years, at least. I have always loved writing, be it a light everyday story or even the heavy usually best kept to myself one. I hate that i have been abandoning this hobby of mine for years. I journal, sometimes. But journaling takes a lot of effort, i need to write everyday (because journals have dates and whatnots and i hate leaving any dates blank) and well, my handwriting is excruciatingly ugly even i myself am having trouble understanding it. So i opt to one that is most easy, instagram stories. Captions can be both short and long, deep or not, takes seconds or minutes. However, as easy as it seems, it is also lacking depth and thought. Can i even call it writing then? :)

Here we go, me promising myself that i will start writing again. Doesn’t have to be deep and long, but it needs to be honest. That’s the gist of this blog, anyway. I must write from the heart. Like i used to. 

Boldog uj evet!

Frojes neues jahr!

Stastny novy rok!

Now that i wish you 3 times in 3 different languages, hope your 2026 will be kinder, gentler and full of quiet (loud, if you must) wins than 2025 did! 

Happy new year! (That’s a 4th)

See you soon.